What is the opposite of anxiety? What would it feel like to just be content with who you are and where you're at? It was 11th of January 2021 when I got a glimpse of an answer to that. I didn't just realize it verbally but also felt it throughout my being.
I've struggled with feelings of rejection, insecurity and malcontent my entire life. That doesn't necessarily mean I was actually rejected, in danger or had a reason to be malcontent but for me, that emotional reality was my actual reality. Intense thinking, articulation and integration of my thoughts and feelings helped me come to groundbreaking realizations, such as that I am meant to feel content at all times.
Instead of striving to get spikes of pleasure and satisfaction from an activity, a person or an item, I realized I am meant to dwell in such a place where my satisfaction is at a constantly high level. I could never decipher what it means to "live on a higher level" but now I know — the low, base level of living deals with extracting as many zings of pleasure from the material world. On the other hand, evolving beyond that means having a high baseline that no amount of stress or struggle can bring down.